i'm just a notch in your bedpost

meow meow meow

2011-12-17T12:04:00.000-08:00

oh my god, my host mother just made a reference to justin beiber and it was the cutest thing ever.
in all seriousness my host parents are possibly some of the nicest people i ahve ever met.

aside from mr tegmann

GERMANY N JUNK

2011-12-17T10:36:00.000-08:00

so yeah, im in germany now and i kinda want to cry. so here's the simplified summary of my stay.

-get my host parents to repeat their question three times so i can give them the wrong answer complete with bad grammar.
-always underestimate the cold and wear clothes that are not sufficient in any way.
-get annoyed because martin got a really hot host brother.
-get annoyed because rachael got a really attractive host sister.
-forget that i have to speak german when it's silent for a while and then get really sad because i have to translate everything and use my brain :(((((((

so yeah i know that i have to give it time n junk but like its really hard to fit in. and i dont really understand my family regardless whether i was a perfect student in german or not, school never really taught us how to like conduct a normal conversation, just like my favourite class and what sport i play. i know that its helpful somewhat but i just think there's better stuff i could have learn't before coming here. ugh, oh well too late now. but yeah, lets stop before i get too angsty yes?

on the brightside on of the first things my host mother said to me was "du trinkst wein oder bier?" which was kind of amusing because its kind of a big 'fuck you' to nacel. but yeah, i guess im gonna have to give it more time and stop comparing things here to things at home.

yeah so, im gonna look at band members twitters, laugh at their lives and wonder why michael guy chislett exists.

2011-11-16T05:13:00.001-08:00

but let me clarify.
those mashed potatoes were magnificent.

another cock in the murder machine

2011-11-16T05:11:00.000-08:00

akjbkajbdv i didn't study for my german oral and i stayed up too late making mashed potatoes.
well done gracie !

lolnalexlol

2011-11-15T01:16:00.001-08:00

today i took a selfie.
i vowed never to do it again.

tumblr can go join myspace in hell

2011-11-15T01:14:00.000-08:00

remember that thing where you study for your german exam and you don't spend all you time on the internet? you dont? neither do i !

2011-11-13T03:02:00.001-08:00

i realised that i hate it when the words 'me at' are next to each other because i think it says meat and then i get confused and feel stupid.

'make my job a big vacation'

2011-11-12T20:04:00.000-08:00

i wrote up this whole studying timetable thing and now i don't have an excuse for not studying.
im gonna go have a cry.
and not study.

beatle writing

2011-11-06T00:26:00.000-07:00

NARDWUAR SCARES ME.

i suck at blogging !

2011-11-03T23:47:00.000-07:00

being vegan is possibly the hardest thing i have ever had to do.
i have to eat dark chocolate and i cant eat cheese :(((((

dhvadhvkahbdvakd. Laura wont pick up her phone because she's a dumb slut.

cool beans. what else is new?

askjvbakjbv, im so late for meeting joelle but ironically i'll be there before ryan, henry and laura.
YES. I FEEL ORGANISED.

(^^^) RAH

2011-10-27T00:57:00.000-07:00

okay so yeah i haven't done a blog i a while and im lazy.

yeah so i haven't started religion but i think i have a speech and drama lesson through that class anyway so im gonna start tonight and finish it over the weekend because im a sneaky bitch.

and yesterday was loverly because i went around for like an hour with amy looking through hard rubbish and i got a slightly damaged pin board, which was nice n junk.
and tomorrow im going to help her bottle her home brew beer stuff which will be interesting.

and now im trying to find a reason for my mum to get me 4 double blacks instead of 2 all the while her thinking that they're not all for me because im a good child.
fuck.

ps. im doing nice things with grace on sunday which is gonna be enjoyable and pleasant.
i cant wayte 2 c dat bich!!!!!

pps. my turtle serge hatched who is conveniently named after mr guala.

4th post today. what of it?

2011-10-11T01:04:00.000-07:00

but seriously
just watch the first 10 seconds.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AvHn03NprX8&feature=related

fangirls amuse me.

lawlz u redie 4 da next 1?

2011-10-11T00:19:00.000-07:00

summary of my day

-joelle telling me off for not blogging more and then going into my expert role of the 3rd wheel.

so yeah joelle wanted me to blog so im just gonna upload amusing band photos that are scattered amongst everything in my laptop.

that sentence didn't make sense.

......

moving on.

i fixed it !

2011-10-11T00:09:00.001-07:00

....somewhat

2011-10-10T23:43:00.001-07:00

blogger changed my template when i didn't want it too and now it looks weird and stupid

:((((((((((((((((

apart from my background

dat lookz dam goood gurl

'nowhere to run'

2011-09-27T01:15:00.000-07:00

ps. all the purple in my hair like dulled down and now you cant even like tell it's there and i want to hurt small year seven's.

'cause you're grinning like a fool'

2011-09-27T01:10:00.000-07:00

i was so totally wrong when i said fever was my favourite panic album.

ajdhvbakjdbv, why didn't i like pretty odd when i first listened to it? actually no, thats wrong, um i liked it when i first listened to it but i didn't fully appreciate its greatness at the time.

yeah, that sounds better.

AND I TOTALLY FORGOT THAT COUNTER REVOLUTION IS LIKE 3 DAYS AWAY

and when i got my haircut my hairdresser told me a story where he went to bmth and people from the audience were just like getting up on stage so he got up and like hugged oli sykes from behind and stayed there for about two minutes before security told him to go away. but i think we're all missing the point that my hairdresser hugged oli sykes for two minutes and oli sykes didn't do anything about it.

THERE COULD TOTALLY BE REMNANTS OF OLI SYKES IN MY HAIR.

call me crazy

2011-09-22T04:51:00.000-07:00

today i totally paid someone to put a needle through my face. it was a great time for all !
and the stud i picked is green and pretty and nice and junk

but i also feel bad because i upset some people with my impatience when i didn't mean to.

um yeah, i also got a cool rolling stones top and life is kinda pleasant at the moment.

somewhat existant boundaries

2011-09-20T07:54:00.000-07:00

yeah so, um today i kinda got random parts of my hair dyed purple and i got like a weird side fringe thing and my hair in blonder and i like it and it looks cool. um yeah, i think i might go back later to get some more done? but im not sure.

ugh, im afraid this blog is extremely boring. but um just felt like letting everyone know that my hair looks slightly more interesting than it used too.

peace out homies

ps. i accidentally stepped on my eyeliner and it spanned it two. i cried.

JABVDKAJDBVKAJBV, I JUST SNEEZED AND ACCIDENTALLY BIT MY TOUNGE AND EVERYTHING IS DEATH RIGHT NOW.

stay gold trace, stay gold

2011-09-13T16:34:00.000-07:00

im in religion and blogging because im such a reb.

i've missed like the last 3 lessons and i dont understand anything, but yeah

and blogger thought it was okay to like delete 3 blogs that i posted. it was not.

by the way i forgot to mention camp. um it was decent? not good, not bad. although it was kind of amusing when the boys drew a 70 meter long penis in the sand. yeah, that was amusing.

and then yesterday everyone was making fun of me for the way that i run.

I DO NOT PRANCE. evry1 needz 2 stop bein so meen 2 mie.

and in my defence i have no idea how to do high jump, i just generally throw my body in an upwards direction.

but people said i looked graceful in my attempts of co-ordination so everyone else can suck it.

AND I WAS DESKTOP SURFING AND I FOUND MY STAY GOLD PHOTOS. SOMETHING IN THE WORLD IS RIGHT.

english with grace may sometimes be the only reason i live. *no exaggerations*

dot points meshed together

2011-09-11T05:12:00.000-07:00

there are like five blogs that i want to write all at once. and like three of them a stupid teenager ones so i may as well skip that and just say

i got some cool new things
big tablets are hard to dry swallow
my new house is weird
my room is nice and big with nice posters
i thought showers could make me feel better?
i hate it when i disregard people when they clearly know what they are talking about

and i would say that i lot faith in humanity but

1. thats not exactly how i feel
2. that makes things sound worse than they are
3. not sure if i ever had any faith in the first place

ps. angsty angst angst. the pills aren't working !

im all jittery

2011-08-28T02:27:00.001-07:00

hey y'all i certainly didn't just have a red bull and 2 coffee's int eh span of 15 minutes so that i could do all my homework. heh heh

anyway i've got so much homework it was necessary.
like legit

theres way too much

sorry i said it would happen

2011-08-25T06:18:00.000-07:00

living up to that image that we all want to keep,
then stride off to bed and pretend to sleep,
i guess you could say that we're all a bit outcast,
why the fuck can't i wave and then just walk past,

self conscious and shit, are those the teenage years,
i'll constantly break down and drown in my tears,
as the poison pushes past my lips
all part of 21st video clips

striking and nipping at the now numbing pain,
achieving new things but your effort's in vain
when you finally realise it adds up the same
making the ordeal exponentially lame

'can you feel the way i feel?'

2011-08-25T05:45:00.000-07:00

ugh, im in one of 'those' moods where everything just fucks up all at once. and now im gonna be a moody teenager and write lyrics and poetry into the early hours of the morning because i wont be able to sleep and i'll be having a great time because while im being all stupid and i'll be overanalysing everything and making everything a bigger deal than it needs to be. i hate it every time i do this and i hate what the rest of my night will be but yeah im gonna be all boring and moody and accept the fact that there's shit all i can do about it.

also i didn't finish religion. fuck.

clogged sinus' are the worst

2011-08-19T05:04:00.000-07:00

i just made a panic pun !

gracie: one day im gonna be with with brendon urie, ryan ross, alex gaskarth and jack barakat.
gracie:we'll all be in one big mormon relationship together !
gracie: ha. didya get that? hey?! hey?!
joelle: no..
gracie because brendon urie was a mormon.
joelle: really?
joelle: no wonder he's odd
gracie: lets just say he's pretty odd
gracie: hurhurhur

SERIOUSLY WHY DONT I HAVE MORE FREINDS.

IM HAPPY

2011-08-19T04:53:00.000-07:00

COUNTER REVOLUTION

im so ridiculously happy and im super happy and happy and im just generally happy.

and im gonna end this blog because its shit and bad and im happy

and i totally burnt my finger earlier but this totally makes up for it !

but yeah im happy and junk

P>A>N>I>C

2011-08-15T06:56:00.000-07:00

panic is coming and sum41 is coming and the tickets are like 97 and im happy and happy is an understatement because its panic and sbjvsjdbvsbdbsbblkjsdb everything is lovely.

ps. i didn't eat all day because i wasn't hungry and just now at like 11:30 my stomach thought it was appropriate to remind me that i need to eat and i basically ate half my house and now i feel sick.

GO FIGURE.

but panic are coming so excuse me while i sob.

least i can say i stand for something

2011-08-14T06:11:00.000-07:00

i feel stupid and like girly and silly and nervous and silly. and i think im being stupid because i shouldn't be like this but i am.

but yeah. my mum got angry at me because i ate all the wagon wheels.

OH MY GOD. I JUST SQUIRTED THIS LIKE COLD SPRAY INTO MY NOSE AND IT STINGS LIKE A MOTHERFUCKER. SERIOUSLY MY EYES ARE LIKE WATERING AND I MIGHT PASS OUT. FUCK THIS IS SO UNPLEASANT.

'we said no more war, no more clothes'

2011-08-13T07:55:00.000-07:00

i've literally just the most confusing weirdest most confusing hour and half skype call of my life. and now my throat hurts and im tired. but yeah im still confused. and yeah things might be awkward on monday. hopefully not. probably will be though.

oh well.

lawlz guise. i haz a boifreend. ex oh.

im moving in 3 weeks!

2011-08-13T03:23:00.000-07:00

i was just on facebook and i saw that rik span made a status and it was like,

1st person is your sidekick: Rachel Rebeca Tymianski
2nd person tried to expose your secret identity: Stephanie Webster
3rd person is your butler: Rik Span
4th person is your arch nemesis: Rory Tassonyi
5th person is your love interest: Patrick Nash
6th person is the mentor who dies: Stephan Panagos

and i then i decided to like see what mine was,

1st person is your sidekick: Caroline Graham
2nd person tried to expose your secret identity: Grace Dowling
3rd person is your butler: Joelle Corthay 4th person is your arch nemesis: Amy Hooper
5th person is your love interest: Rachael Anthonisz
6th person is the mentor who dies: Sodia Plymin

and now im amused but slightly freaked out that rachael is my love interest. no. i was wrong. im just freaked out.

SWR

2011-08-09T02:33:00.000-07:00

want to see what the skype conversation between me and joelle has been today.

gracie: HOLY FUCK SOUNDWAVE
joelle: HOLY FUCK I KNOW
gracie:KJADBVHADBVJHABDSV
joelle:HDBFHDABVKJABDKJVBA
gracie: AJHDVLJHDAVJHADBV
joelle:IUBDVIDUBVWJHEBVLWE
gracie:IM SO FUCKING UPSET
joelle:ADBFHASBVJHABDVJHABDV
gracie:HASVHABDKVBAS.KDJBV

oh god. i could just curl up i a corner and die. fuck you van halen. or who ever ruined it, i dont know. i couldn't find out why because it reminded me of the fact that i want to die. I DONT MAKE SENSE. UGH I DONT EVEN FUCKING CARE ANYMORE. AJFDBAVLHAFDBVKADBVJHADBV JH,ABDVKHABDL VHADGFVJHADVHJADJHJHAD VHJADHJVHJADBJ ADHJCHJV DH AJHDBVJHWBDHJ ADHJV.

ugh and on top of that some one in particular is pissing me off so much right now and i just want to tell them to fuck off because they're trying to be someone they're not and they're being a infuriating little cunt.

i have to get everyone away form me now before i kill something.

so heteroisdbvlkjsdbvlabdv

2011-08-07T06:11:00.000-07:00

a;douvjblqhadbvliadsbvlajbv.

oh my god. im literally crying from laughter at this and i keep watching it over and over and its so fucking lovely.

OH GOD. JUST WATCH IT.

OH. YOU TOUCH MY TRALALA. LALALALALALALALALALALALALALA.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N7-c2taKhas&NR=1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N7-c2taKhas&NR=1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N7-c2taKhas&NR=1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N7-c2taKhas&NR=1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N7-c2taKhas&NR=1

top 3 procrastination tactics.

2011-08-07T01:59:00.000-07:00

1. blogging

2. fanfiction

3. tumblr

okay yeah so um remember when i said i would do a holiday blog thing, yeah this is it but blogger hates me and the pictures might not work-which will be bad beacuse this is basically all this is. but yes-moving on !

HAWAII N JUNK

yeah so lets start of with amy bein a bamf n all. and you also see her dragon tattoo really well here and some one needs to appreciate it.

here she is again !

and then sam came along.

and he brought his crutches !

there isn't really any point to this photo buti just love amy so much in this that i had to slyly put it in.

ha, how did that get in there? oh look is that radiohead top?!.. heh...heh....

anyway and then amy went home. and i was overjoyed with the fact that i was left with sam.

and then this son of a gun came !

"yes sam. that's a couch."

and then there was helicopter ride!

sam's face amuses me. that is all.

AND SAM AND I WENT HOME AND MUM AND DAD STAYED FOR LONGER BUT THEY DONT HAVE ANY INTERESTING PHOTOS. SO I'M GONNA SHOW YOU SOME PHOTO'S OF ME AND CHELSEA ON FRIDAY.

okay so we like made food and stuff and then it was really hard to clean. so don't judge. chelsea's position and my face are so appropriate to how hard cleaning that freaking smoothie maker thing was.

I LIKE THIS PHOTO SO MUCH.

AKDJBVQ78R3BASC'.Z'VZNjbvbadbvuiaqeFJKAVKS. I LOVE THIS PHOTO SO MUCH AND CHELSEA DOSEN'T EVEN LIKE IT AND SHE SHOULD BECAUSE ITS AMAZING.

um and yeah so that was my way of procrastinating and not doing english homework that i need to do really, really bad.

trashed my own house party 'cause nobody came

2011-08-01T08:48:00.000-07:00

i feel obliged to do an interesting blog because its the first one on my new blog but i cant think of anything to say so im just generally gonna write down whatever comes to mind.

..i can't think of anything.

NIGHTY NIGHT. IM TIRED AND STRESSED.